Yes, I am alive, it has been too long since my last post but as a promise to my self-proclaimed number one fan I am going to have 1 real resolution for 2013, and that is to write more, and maybe it doesn't have to be just about my continuous failed love life, I need to start praising myself and the successes and struggles that I have gone through and/or are going through.
I am always hopeful for a great New Year's Eve, i seem to be one of the few people who enjoy the fact of celebrating the past and future; majority of my friends find it cliche or an amateur night out, which they are totally correct about. And every year i am hopeful for a fun (possibly magical) evening, then reality sets in and i realize i am not in a movie and i need to stop thinking that i would meet the man of my dreams and it would start the next year of my life. It never works that way, so instead i have a night of fun and drinking and dancing with my girlfriends because in the end, what is more important than the people you want to consistently have in your life!
I usually do not like to make resolutions because it is just far to easy to give up on them, I'd rather set some small goals that I'd like to accomplish, first being to loose some weight, like every other person in the world, but i have very specific reasons for this, one because I've continued to let myself gain weight even after a number of my clothes stopped fitting me, second because i have 3 weddings this year and all 3 are of my very best friends which includes one where i will be in a bridesmaid gown (yikes! the first bridal party i am a part of since my cousin's wedding) and another wedding where i will be in the same room as my ex boyfriend and his now wife (anxiety of finding a date to that wedding will follow, luckily i have about 7 months to find a suitable date-MUST BE OVER 6 FEET). I'd just like to feel good about myself again- i go through periods of borderline depression (not uncommon) where i just don't feel good enough about anything in my life, my job, my friends, my family-but then i have moments of clarity where i realize i am beyond lucky so another "resolution" is to just take advantage of my life. I am now considered to be approaching 30 (in 4 years) but i need to continue to do just that. This year was huge for me, i was brave enough to move out of my parents house into the city, something I've always wanted to do, and i cannot be happier about it, i have realized that i am very independent and it makes me confident that in 2013, i will be just fine.
happy new year bitches!
